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My Diary My guestbook! I dont update too often but keep checkin
Have you ever fell in love,
But knew they did not care?
Have you ever felt like crying,
But knew you'd get nowhere?
Have you ever said 'goodbye'
Not wanting them to go
Or whispered 'I love you' softly
Not wanting them to know
You cried all night in misery
And almost went insane.
Theres nothing in this world
That causes so much pain
If I could choose between love and death
I think Id rather die.
Love is fun but hurts too much
And the price you pay is high
So I say dont fall in love
You'll be hurt before its through
You see my friend I ought to know
I fell in love with you
If I could say
But one last thing
Before we were to part
Id tell you
How much fun Id had
How I loved you from the start
If I could do
But one last thing
Before you went away
Id kiss your lips,
Watch your smile,
Softly touch your face
If I could hear
But one last thing
Right before you were to leave
Id listen to your breath
Your soft whispers
And how you said you loved me
I watch my blood drip
From the blade to the floor
I pray for the strength
But I cannot cut anymore
My clothes are blood soaked
My heart beating fast
I dont think Ill make it
Dont think Ill last
This was the point
But Im scared now, full of fear
Whats gonna happen
Who will even care
Im crying hard
Laying here as I pray
I wanted to die
But not in this way
Maybe theyll be sorry
They will cry and grieve
Maybe theyll feel the same
Go through what they caused me
Want to die
Want to live
Why must my feelings
Contradict
Want to love
Need to hate
Want To smile
Need the pain
Emotionaly destressed
Cut deep from within
Through all of this
One side just cant win
I have dyed red hair
And light blue eyes
But I think they are turning green
I like what I wear
And Im average sized
It sums me up..thats me.
I may not be too perfect.
I may not catch your eye
You can love me or hate me I dont really care
Just be honest please dont lie
I dont want you to pretend Im gorgeous
Just because you know I like you alot
Even though you may think your being sweet
Believe me, hunni, your not
I know that Im not ugly
Ive been attracted to before
But maybe Im not what your heart deisres
Or maybe you dont know for sure
I love you with all my heart
But Id rather you be happy even if its not with me
So if you dont want to be with me just tell me
Ill try not to cry, Youll see.
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